Miss you loads!!!

How fast time goes by! You cannot believe how many times during the day I think of you. There are just silly things that remind me of you, the most daily stuff. It has been the best experience in my life so far. I've learnt a lot, I've grown up. I'm more mature and I've got my ideas clearer. It has been a huge pleasure to share a year with you. You are wonderful people. I get a tear in my eye when I see all the pics. Wishing you all the best! xxxxxx

This is not the end

All good things have to come to an end and this magnificent experience is about to end up. I have just 6 days left in The British Isles and I'll come back for sure. There are plenty of places I leave unseen and they are worth a visit. This last weekend has been absolutely quiet, I didn't feel like doing anything else, I'm so excited, with ants in my pants, that I needed to chill out a bit. I'm surprised that time has passed by so fast, there have been better days than others, but the overall feeling is pretty positive and I'm thinking about repeat it in the close future. It also depends on my marks next year, because I'm into the University I wanted and in two-month time (approx.), I'll be starting my classes. I just can't wait for it! What else can I ask for? Everything is going well, there are new people in my life who I really hope know in depth and there are people who are not in my life any more. Sometimes, we have to make decisions and turn the page. Actions speak louder than words, innit? I love to have a Kentish accent, I guess I have it, I don't know, at least I'm happy to have learnt in this part of the country.
A new challenge is about to begin: Learning German and I'm very happy about it, it sounds quite interesting to be able to read books written in this language.
So this is a see you later, for now :)

This week is being quite stressful because I have to prepare my documents to change the university where I'll study next course. I consider the period is too short and I don't want to wait until September because that means I'll begin later than other people and I don't want to miss any class. On top of all, being so far I don't have any control over the steps nor process, and I feel kinda insecurity and most likely unnecesary worries. But, I can't help myself, it's something very important to me, because i can't afford myself to lose another year. It's been difficult to realise what I wanted to do in my life and now that I'm aware of it, I only want to do it and work hard to achieve it. So, the deadline for the enrollment form is on 21st. which means you don't have too much time because I assume that you can't go at the weekend, or yes? All I know is there's a huge lack of info.

Lollipop Lady

Lollipop lady aka crossing guard is one of those things I've discovered in this country. It has become so familiar to see her every single day that It's strange when she isn't. For example, this morning we haven't seen her and despite the flow of traffic is limited (Although it's supposed to be rush hour), she helps us alot to cross the road. I have no idea how she is called but all I can say is that she is very friendly and helpful, I suppose that it's part of her job. In any case, thank you for your service which can become very tough when the weather is bad and ugly, something quite common in here.

CAE

Yesterday was the E-Day (exam day). I'm not all done yet though. I'll do the last one part (Speaking test) on Sat, and to be honest, I'm looking forward to finishing it. I hope I don't get very nervous. But above all, most importantly is the pics are not too difficult and I know the vocabulary related to them, otherwise, I'll be lost! Unfortunately, I haven't had an easy time lately, so I haven't been able to manage to prepare my exam(s)/test(s)/whatever! properly. I've been down in the dumps, and I wasn't in the mood to put my nose into books. (this sounds suspiciously incorrect)

I have to mention that the last class we had, one of our classmates (Jim) gave out a lovely bunch of yellow roses. We all were surprised. I have put my two flowers in a vase with water to keep them as long as possible. Before I bin it, I'll dry a few petals.

The exams went not too bad, better than I thought previously. Although It was a big effort because we spent all morning long doing it. I hope it worths it. If not, I'll have another go when I feel ready. I know how much I've improved during this year in England. Naturally, it's much better If I return home with a official qualification... But you can't have your cake and eat it too, can you? All I want now is to end my exams up and start a new stage in my life. That's what life is all about, I guess: Beginnings and endings. As regards the exam (again), I think the best part for me was Use of English (this is the grammar test), I was comparing the answers with a classmate and we had the same ones, so or we are happily right or tragically wrong. Let's be postive about it, I have a hunch that it's the first one and not the latter. The worst part for me was the Listening because apart from its complexity, it was the last, so we were already quite tired and it was more complicated to pay attention. Oh my God, it was impossible to understand a single word from the first girl in the first exercise, she had an odd accent.

Ooook! I've been lazing about enough time for this morning. Let's get started!

Happy Birthday

Although we weren't precisely high-spirited yesterday, It was Abbie's B/day. In my humble opinion I believe it would have been more reasonable to wait a week because things have happened very recently. Anyway, as it wasn't my decision, we decorated the house with balloons and some stuff and she got lots of presents and cards. We are going to Splash water park tomorrow. She is going to have a party and I'm sure she'll enjoy a lot. I have tried not to go, but I have to. So, I'm afraid I won't be able to visit all the places I had in mind. I'll just take it easy and do as much as possible. No rush. I can always come back. The country is not going to move, I hope!

Oh, gaze ye on the firmament! a hundred clouds in motion

I wandered lonely as a cloud
That floats on high o'er vales and hills,
When all at once I saw a crowd,
A host, of golden daffodils;
Beside the lake, beneath the trees,
Fluttering and dancing in the breeze.

Continuous as the stars that shine
And twinkle on the milky way,
They stretched in never-ending line
Along the margin of a bay:
Ten thousand saw I at a glance,
Tossing their heads in sprightly dance.

The waves beside them danced, but they
Out-did the sparkling leaves in glee;
A poet could not be but gay,
In such a jocund company!
I gazed—and gazed—but little thought
What wealth the show to me had brought:

For oft, when on my couch I lie
In vacant or in pensive mood,
They flash upon that inward eye
Which is the bliss of solitude;
And then my heart with pleasure fills,
And dances with the daffodils.

William Wordsworth

Saying goodbye

Once a teacher told us: To be born is only to begin to die, and today more than ever I have this saying nailed in my mind. When you see someone to die in less than a month, fading away as the flame of a candle, leaving behind just a veil of smoke and sadness, it makes you think about certain things.
She passed away last rainy Thursday and It was a really hard day in here for everybody. I guess It was the best for her tho. The word I've heard more lately is: Strong. It's an adjective easily pronounceable but it's not so easy to put in practice.
Nearly a month and a half to be in England and I wish I were already at home with my family. I absolutely need them. So I have to add up another word: Patience.
I still cannot believe this has happened. It seems like a bad nightmare. Life goes on, and nobody waits for anybody. I need to carry on with the race if I want to get to the finishing line. The truth is I cannot do too much for the kids she leaves. However, I cannot stop thinking about them. It's simply horrific. You never know when you are gonna fall in death's clutches. But death is part of life and we have to learn to cope with it.
I'll keep her memory with fondness; those conversations we had walking to the school every morning. Rest in peace. We all miss you.

A bad day

Today, 7th June is about to end up and thankfully tomorrow will be another day. I couldn't imagine I was gonna receive such bad news. How could you expect anything like this? I'm not in an easy position though. After all, It's not my business but I can't help my feelings. What can I do? How can I help? Simply, I cannot do too much for them. Maybe, I have lots of questions inside my head and I don't get any convincing answer.

Life consists on changes and in loss as well. It's sad to think about what's about to come, and what's going on know. All I know is that I have to keep strong and bear this difficult situation. However, where can I get out that strength? Today I feel small, very small.

Where is the moment we needed the most

You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

They tell me your blue skies fade to gray.

I give cuddles when they are required but nobody gives me one when I need a big hug to make me feel everything's going to be alright. I miss my family awfully, and maybe I have more reasons than never to come back. Who knows? Time will tell us. But for today, all I manage to think and the conclusion I have reached is: Life is a bitch and then you die. the lowering of the curtain.

Is it gonna rain?

(Picture taken in London's tube)

I have the day off and I'm still undecided.I don't know what to do or where to go. The sky is dark-grey and It will be raining soon (My washing is in the garden, damn it!) To put my clothes inside or leave them out...That's the question. The truth is that I don't care too much the destiny of my pieces of fabric.
Most likely is I'm going to spend the morning in Rochester because It's cosier than Gillingham and I don't want to do shopping, just walk around and take pictures and that's the orign of my worries about the bad weather. So, I'll take my brolly (FFFFFery immmporrrrtant) and my camera.
Yesterday I was tidying my stuff and I have got rid of lots of unwanted ''rubbish''. I have exactly two months ahead till I go home. So... Let's start the day! Happily and merrily life is but a dream, row row my boat lalala (I'm the best at making up songs' lyrics)